Hole In Heart More Condition_symptoms Dwell

As long posts that no one reads them and I have four cats around here that does not happen I will expand and take advantage of all that is necessary, warning that this will be an emo post as they come, poor thing 'comments nothing happens will be instantly ignored.

As you all know there are many things that man needs in life. Money, health, friendship, love and family support.
of money was never quite there, but not something I really care, really, just want it to survive, money does not matter much to me (although there are material things you want). In health
fortunately I was always fine except for my thinez comes from metabolism, as necessary and I'm always strong and healthy, but my weight is not too big for my small height.

Friendship ... I was always there, in one way or another, having friends is something in this life I have learned that it is easy to get ... cost real friends, but I've been lucky enough to find and I am truly grateful, because without them there would not a poor spider thread to hold on.

Love .. I have never been in love, I never felt the love and no one ever loved me enough. It is very sad, painful, but it's true HE EVER LOVE ME and, while I go, I doubt that any vez can. There are no excuses for me I'm beautiful and friendly or any of that shit. Back to reality, E SAS THINGS HAVE NEVER SERVED LOVE, ONLY USED FOR FAST POWDER thing that I refuse outright and I'm afraid of having to resort once for being desperate. Some guys in my childhood I was declared, but not their role or I did not realize, but it was nothing that I would create major trauma, a week after getting a beautiful girlfriend with whom to be and that, rejoicing for them because they are really nice, they are lasting years.
always say again and always until the day I die: I'm just a stonewhich you crash before finding true love tropezarásy then you wake up after you realize you do not really worthwhile, and there was someone who could make you really happy .

I've always been looking for love, but I've never met, I have never in love, and people who could say that I have drawn something (not to say or like or want and I'm not sure I do too because my characters role and mix, so I ascribe to that and I do not know) later I realized that would be impossible, since either I am of the same sex or always find someone. total, which was something neitherout "oh, I like" or "oh, really appeals to me" is not something that has hurt me, I think that would happen if that was not persna, the truth is that it would my life as usual, so it's not something you should worry. No, I've never been in love, and nobody liked me, or ... are stupid, no matter, because my way of being as my father often said "the men away" not that I have marked the great thing, but it is something to remember, say so many stupid things together. But sometimes I think it could be true, cry for nothing, my voice is ugly, maybe I exaggerated step many times, it shows that deep down I want to bethe center of attention, failing that, I pay attention, they know I'm there ... affects me too, hopefully ... I wish I could be on one side, watching, silent, watching everything that goes around with a wall ami from which nobody could hurt me ... has long had many masks in my outside was shy and introverted, he showed people how it was ... But some friends managed Kitaro many masks of them .... now I want to hide and not go out anymore, whoever will struggle to find truth, I lose all these emotions that only one who really cares for me I can see them .... But now so like a fucking book open without mystery, with a glance, is total out too .. a lot ...

part, meinto not, in my relationships do not like lying, so some people rely on me ... but ended up being just that person who you tell everything and that the time is wrong (if indeed I say it) say a few things and as easily and encourage me not to worry kiero people will be as if nothing had happened, but I will have a huge void in my heart that no one will be able to Relena ever.
not lose hope! will say, do not be so emo! I'm not emo, I want to kill, I just want to vent st Januaryon occasion, the whole world explodes once and this time he has had the unhappy azahara that smile for do not worry, be happy with you and you can tell all you want, but that only be front, acted not because im really happy with you, but because it really broken inside this heart still incomplete, missing many real things, but never tell ... or I break in front of you and that really is not something you want to see how low I can get to fall.

not want to get haste, I give it time but .. why am I so different? no, I'm not, inI really like every one of you, but right now I feel so bad I feel like it was so different from you I can not feel half the things you feel. I envy you. You want to, hate, love, weep, weep for love ... I just get angry when I sulk, I cry when I look down and sink by cualkier thing (aunk actually seeming to be strong I am weaker k a pen .. or rather, wants to be as weak as a pen, do not know right now You need a hug like that is not for worth ....). I can only dream about all those things that you'll hear almost daily.

I feel alone ... I'm surrounded byfriends ... people know k k me kiere ... but why I feel so terribly alone? so bad I have not seen enough? k I know I can count on them, I ka I can tell more than one billet all this stuff and I escuhcarán ... but no, I do not show it, that would force them or maybe I'm really msotrarles as ... I'm scared, I have fear, I do not see k k k'm a brat not peude weak with their problems ... I can only .. I Yes, I can only ... I do not want to be alone .... I do not know k despised for being so and try to help ... no, what I will do is make them suffer to see everyoneor the pain I have inside me ... I worry ... so I do not want ... all this gap has to stay inside ... very deep ... so pqueño anyone see or be able to worry about it ... but then again feel alone ... I'm looking forward to a ball of self-destruction that squeeze the button "start"

I feel so pathetic writing this ... is shouted as if asking someone to come and I aki sake ... is it really that and only want, but if I tell someone is forced, and if not will not know ever say this .. maybe that's why I leave this open Peurto pekeña ... sabiing that no one ever will. It's like trying to shout for help in the middle of a desert, useless, but you do not see vents.

And I've taken all this for a fucking argument with my father, who specializes in making me feel like shit, I just want your love, and every time I answer and if he despises him contsto I am a bad daughter, but will not answer despising and becoming false ideas of who I am ... Mensopreciarme not that I want, the watching over me, loves me and cares about me, but something is not done right. NOT ACCEPT ME AS I AM: for him I am a conceited brat, ungrateful, impudent, loud, voice does not want to ratk that was not watermills and not destroy it with a disgust I had to swallow my pride k, k and I have always done) He kissed me and told me not with him nfade eme ... but you do not know daddy is I'm not angry with you ... I'm disappointed with you ... you think I am a person who I am and what I know to be repeated, I scream and I scream and start the cycle again where I have k kien swallow my pride and end up like the poor, pork access to this is keep it to myself and end all as bad ....

why not I say? Simple, I escuhcria, it would explain a thousand times and not understand (I do not mean to say, I've tried things more risk factorsr entnede iles as we finished) and would end up telling me again I think these kinds of pork k, sk'm ungrateful, I would change, would begin to raise their voices, he tambiény end up arguing and nothing unresolved , feeling exactly how I feel right now .... and I have too much pain to look for more thanks.

This ... this is very foolish ... spend the time and everything will be exactly the same, if one of my wishes, how to find or accept my family (ha!) forget all this ... but now ... now I feel good mentally and had to write all this ... Yuki ... nor CARMONA GOMEZ AZAHARA is broken, broken and does not know how to stick, I only find remedies that last a little and then caudno veulva to happen, I'll go to break ... because that's the way ... and I just want to make me a very pequeñoy ovillito hide, hide in the shadows until somebody, someone wants to understand ... I want to release it or someone ... which I doubt, even I'm tired of writing that is addressed to myself ...

just want to hide and no one will find me ... tiny, in the shadows, quietly .... because my brightness is only temporary and so no one will care ... because when you shine, people wouldignore .. but when I turn off ... nobody really realizes I'm there ... Yes, that's what I want ... would be so easy and cowardly have no feelings ... I suffer too ... but still I appreciate ... is a sign that I'm alive ... aunk wish it were otherwise ...

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